unknown arrival

i arrived too late
to dance upon a city
of trash, and ruin

me--constant reminder:
had i been born
earlier, easier

so you say
build a home on the home
you made me

tell me again!
now is only a nothing,
a nothing

for i should be
a new thing, out
of garbage

sometimes, not
enough with white paint
on a canvas

used before countless times.
use before countless times
i'm used

to this circumstance:
a bottle rolls perpetually,
stuck at the top of an escalator

--i'm not.
step off the end
skip round the bend

can you see it?
look down the street
i'm up so far,

frolick up,
the unreachable peak
unsee-able, behind me.